As I said in my previous post, I started to contemplate about church planting and I discussed my plans with Ps Jeff. He asked me which country i wanted to go and i told him “South America”. He asked me why South America. I knew at that point of time that the church planters are returning and there is a need for goers. Moreover I had started learning Spanish…At that point, the church really needed someone to go Chile so bingo! Ps Jeff shocked me when he told me that if I was serious, I could go in 6 month’s time!
If you know me, I’m someone who likes changes and adventures. I will normally jump at the chance. But for this time, I told him to give me time to consider and to count the cost. This time, I really prayed and seek God.
Honestly, the more I consider the more fear I have. In fact, I have them all listed down. My concerns include things like my family, finance, marriage, what will happen if I come back, my career. And things like can I adapt over there? Can I do more here or there… and many things… the more I think about them, the more fear I have.
But God is good. He gave me many assurances. In one of the times spent with Him, God reminded me of this book that I had read. In that book, the woman left for Jerusalem for missions. It was tough but God never fails to provide for her. I was so “envious” of all the intimate encounters she had with God. I remembered telling God that I want to be like her. Holy Spirit reminded me of what I had said and he spoke to my heart “Ee Lee, this is your chance.”
He reminded me again from Matthew 6:33, “But seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well.” He gave me this verse many years ago when I was contemplating an amount to give for church building fund. The sum was a very uncomfortable amount. I needed that money to pay for my living expenses and stuffs. He assured me then that he is more than able, didn’t he create everything? He who takes notice of every bird and flower, surely he will take care of me. I trusted him and gave the “impossible” amount. Amazingly in just one week, God provided me back and more.
He reminded me of how he has taken care of me all these years and surely He who did not spare his own son, wouldn’t he take care of me now? God asks me “Have I ever short changed you when you serve me?”
Lastly, I am convinced that the church is the answer to the world. The church will be the only institution that will last forever. So if I am smart, I would invest in the church. Previously God also gave me a vision of a globe that was dark but there were pockets of light, more and more and finally the globe was filled with light. The light symbolizes the church. The church may seems small and insignificant in the beginning but God will use the church to bring light to the nations.
In my next post, I will write about how I told my parents, preparations and stuffs =)
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